不过我第一首歌选了「サンフェデッド」，可惜没有下载，唱不了（这家的Joysound是离线的）。于是唱了情绪的「アンビバレント」。不知不觉这首歌也有一年的历史了，去年七月左右公开的ETERNAL也未见记录。最近喜欢鸣潮的英文歌，可惜这是日语歌的机器，英文歌少的可怜。不然我就放声高唱 Then I’ll walk down the glory path了。
When I look back at my first Anime Expo, which is already over a month ago. I can’t help but feel that it planted something inside me. Taking someone’s word, it is about “being yourself”, being “unapolegitically into something”. I have always been reserved when I show my interests, especially when there is someone that obviously dislike, or ridicule it. I will fix the grammars later.
It was when Fanimecon 2024 ended. I got to know there is another even bigger convention in Los Angeles. It was called AX. Imaigne axing. It made a bent in my mind, and I was having ideas of going there. Originally I was plannig to go even on myself, but I was lucky enough to find someone to go with.
We came to know that last year’s AX was a complete disaster in terms of the crowd. So we did some preparation. Bought a fan. And we reserved a hotel. Planned to go by car but took the plane in the end. Such a wacky journey. But I am glad we did it.
To jump to the end. I still feel a sense of being lost. There was some energy inside me, and I was not sure what direction I am going with it. I came to know about Vshojo, which before I only knew about Melody. Not even Ironmouse. I grew fond of HIMEHINA, and I am kind of picking up my headphones again – before I was like not listening to music at all. I wore my headphones, but played nothing.
Later I watched HIMEHINA’s live, and also Isekaijoucho’s live.
I am still going over myself. Over the fear of being judged. Maybe people will think “the dude’s just listened to some songs and called himself a fan”. But fuck you. Genuinely. Honestly. What is wrong with being a fan of someone or something? What is wrong with loving a catchy song? Being unapolegitical. Serving cunt. That’s it. Haters can go fuck themselves. That’s what I’ve learned from Fujikura Uruka, whose sang her original song in AX, with her initals as the title, F.U.
Recall
Due to procrastination, the rest is written a year later, on Oct. 12, 2025.
I missed the 2025 AX because of visa delays, but got to attend CCG, Bilibili World and ChinaJoy. It was a shame that I missed Togenashitogeari’s first musical appearance in the US. But on the other hand I got to see Wuthering Waves’ booths, got to play some new games’ demo. Games are not really a thing in AX on the other hand. I should put them down in another blog post.
Date: 04/09/2023
Last edited time: April 9, 2023 7:50 PM
Weather: 🌞Sunny
I had a longed-for eight-hour sleep yesterday. Or today because I was awake around 2am. And I hurried to finish a unit in Duolingo as promised.
And I made the same mistake twice.
“에서” means “from”, and “에” means “to”. “가요” means “go” so it works with “to”. Meanwhile, “와요” — “come” — pairs with “from”. Next time it won’t beat me.
When I started the diary today, it became clear that I had not filled out the weather yesterday. I knew it was cloudy – I checked the weather. But I chose not to prefill it: I wanted to witness it myself.
And I witnessed a 100% sunny day today. It is 19C outside! Warmly lovely sun. I appreciate it. I can wear no tights without feeling cold today.
Are the flowers blooming? I want to check out the arboretum someday. A search through the Internet gave me nothing but rough dates, and even the arboretum home page gave me the image that its residents’ flimsy moods are unfathomable.
Instead, I found a planting calendar. It says that we should plant basil around the end of March here. I didn’t know it two years earlier. I received some basil seeds and a gardening tool set at the end of summer 2021. And I planted it after that. Despite basil being acknowledged as an easy plant, it couldn’t thrive. Its stems were slim and weak, its leaves small and yellow. The frigid winter in Wisconsin denied it the essential sunlight.
Like in Klara and the Sun, I wished the sun could bring it back to life. But in the end, it was in vain. After a year and a half, it dawned on me what went wrong.
Annoyed by Grammarly being fussy at small problems like punctuation, I found this article. It discusses the advantages and implications of these autocorrecting tools.
A generated summary of it:
This article is about the use of Grammarly, an automated written corrective feedback (AWCF) software, in the writing center. The author, who works as a Faculty Associate in the Writing Center at the University of Wisconsin-Madison, revisits the software five years after first trying it and discusses the potential implications of using the software in a writing center. Recent research has shown that students understand the limitations of Grammarly and use it strategically for final paper editing. However, the author has concerns about what this implies for linguistic justice, as it reinforces a rigid and harmful notion of a standard English that’s earned its status through global white supremacy. The author concludes that, while they wouldn’t advocate for students who aren’t already using Grammarly to start using it, they will consider sharing information about the research findings when working with students who are concerned about lower-order concerns.
This led me to think about a popular tweet I saw. “If you feel disregarded, you might well have some language problems. ” It quotes another tweet that recommends elementary language practices.
I do think they both share an interesting point: making a problem to solve it. Grammarly gives low scores to articles and offers solutions to those nonproblems, to make people appreciate it. This tweet thrives by making people question themselves. It shuffled the focus from “Do you make elementary-level mistakes?” to a broader problem.
Admittedly, they are useful: Grammarly can fix many grammar mistakes; doing simple practices may strengthen confidence. But we should know our problem and not get carried away.
As part of the memory-switching test, I put the stick into another slot. My laptop shut down two times in succession. Again, too early to enjoy.
